I Get It, I Am Here

 

I am stuck.

Stuck in place, just like the root of a giant sequoia.

Unable to move. 

Completely numb.

Depression sinks in.

Nothing matters anymore. 

The light at the end of the tunnel is no longer there.

Grades slip,

Motivation declines,

Sleep increases,

Performance decreases.

Body hurts.

Everyone around me is moving so fast

while I sit and watch, stuck in a box

with the weight of my issues.

Is there something wrong with me?

It starts to crush me.

I lay down to take the pressure off, but it only worsens,

the weight of the pile of rocks doesn’t lift.

The simple words “are you okay” choke me up

My shoulders start to sink.

Confidence plummets.

A single tear falls down my cheek.

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If only someone would look me in the eyes?

If only someone would dive in to pull me out? 

If only people knew that the smile and the laugh were a façade? 

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A hand grabs my shoulder, pulls me, a second one locks in, a hug has commenced.

I can’t see a thing in the water but I feel the warmth of a human.

Someone noticed!  

My silent SOS’s have been seen by a ship nearby.

A lifebuoy has been thrown out.

I got the help I needed.

 

How did they know, you ask? 

There are people in this world that love you.

You are never alone.

Open up to the world.

Vulnerability is a superpower, not a curse.

Use it!

You are not a burden, you are not a mistake, you are not dumb, you are not broken.

You don’t have to struggle in silence.

For me, the weight was lifted.

The water was drained.

My feet became unglued from the box and

I could move again.

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I am now carried by the community around me.

How lucky am I?

I have been saved. 

I am here, I know what it is like.

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Let me dive in.

Come here for a hug.

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Tell me,

What is wrong?

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~Greta Brezenski